...My mother was chief of police, and she was never around.

[ She admits it bluntly, but she's unable to keep every bit of resent out of her tone. It's... still something that bothers her, clearly. ]

I know what it takes to have this job. I'm not gonna have kids just to have them feel towards me the way I do about my mother already.

[ If she had kids, she thinks her work would get in the way a lot, which would just lead to them feeling neglected and insufficient, same as she had. If she can help it, she won't inflict that on someone else. ]

Do you imagine yourself having some? One day?